#unexpectedthinghappenduringourmeet...

bismillah...

assalamualaikum...

entry kali ni mcm lmbat sikit..bukan tak nak tulis but study week skrang ni so study is my priority right now even eager nak menulis tu Allah ja tau..gatal no tangan ni nak menaip sokmo lalu..:)..so alhamdulillah Allah dah bagi can untuk tulis..actually, baru balik dari PJ n rumah macik dkat KAJANG sbb smbut eidul adha kan..

then, dapat jumpa adik sekejap dan dia sekali..best sngat sbb adik janji nak belanja tengo wayang scorch trial which is a sequel from maze runner 1 yg kitorg minat sngat..overall movie tu out of 5/5 and 10/10 sbb epic jugalah n some actions here and there..yg pnting hero ada dkat situ which is MINHO!!!minat sokmo dia lalu sbb tu minat sequel maze runner..tak lah, tp yg scorch trial yg ni bnyak explain pasal friendship and sense of humor which is rare among people nowadays..

now, proceed to the main point..jumpa mr fiance' after almost a month plus+++ tak jumpa..lagi lama dari tu ada juga..but truly, bila jarang jumpa sebenarnya menjaga masing2 dari benda yg tak sepatutnya..i guess lah..but, this time around, jumpa dgan dia sngat lain sbb a few unexpected things happened bila ktorg jumpa..which some of it really blow me away and some of it makes me confused and smpai skrang tak jumpa reason sebenarnya apa..

22/09/2015..
kitorg jumpa dkat kl sentral together with my abang and watched the movie together..then, after asr prayer, my abang took his leave and leave me with him..then, we took a walk, yg lucunya whenever sy jalan dgan dia, sy nda pernah stick sebelah dia..means sy suka jalan2 kiri then kanan then boleh jadi depan boleh jadi belakang sekali..but, dia mmg steady ja, straight ja dia kalau jalan..

at first, mmg tak perasaan yg dia pakai long sleeve kemeja, which mmg sy jenis yg suka tengo lelaki pakai long sleeve..nda kesahlah kemeja or t-shirt sekalipun..sory mr fiance', tak perasan..:P..then, he constantly ask me whether mau makan something atau tidak..masa tu mmg tak nak makan apa2, then dia singgah dkat big apple, so he asked me to pick 6 different types of donut..apalagi main hentam ja pilih..

then sy bayar guna duit dia n we dig in the donuts..mmg sy tak makan bnyak sbb masa tu sik da mood mau makan donut..sory..:)..then, i didn't know that he took a picture of me at that time smpailah dia tunjukkan dkat fone dia..sy terus delete gmbar tu tp sy rasa dia still simpan lagi tp nda tau di mana..let him be..then, sy tunggu dia untuk say something but dia pun tunggu sy say something last2 dua2 nda ckap apa2..typical situation for both of us kalau jumpa..lucu lah..

then, we took a walk around the nu sentral and stopped by along the sideway..way down nmpaklah ni budak2 tgah main game chess n ular2..sngat comel nmpak budak2 tu..balik2 ckap dkat dia nak main bnda tu but i'm big enough so tak boleh main..sedih!!!

all the time as we stopped by, i know that he keeps staring at me but i distract him by saying 'mau main di bawah tu'..balik2 sy ckap mcm tu sbb sy malu masa tu, sudahlah suara dia slow mcm tgah berbisik ja..but i like his voice in that situation..mcm suara manja..

sy ingat lagi satu soalan yg buat sy nangis masa tu juga tp sy tahan n hide it from his sight..'ummi sakit hati ka dgan abah?'..like tang2 tu juga air mata tu mau mengalir tp mmg bergenang sdah tp tak jatuh lagi..but mmg terasa sakit sngat bila dia tnya mcm tu..lagi better kalau soalan tu tak ditanya sbb realitinya..mmg tak suka soalan tu sbb rasa mcm dia tau dah jawapan dia apa..and jujurnya sy sndiri nda mau jawab soalan tu sbb sakit..

at one moment, he asked me to stare at him..i really want to see his face but malu tahap alpha mmg tgah menguasai diri masa tu, so i just shook my head and pandang depan sokmo..rupanya ada yg ingin dipastikan dengan pandangan tu..nda pa lah..mungkin ada hikmahnya juga tu..in shaa Allah ada masa lain dan mungkin peluang lain kan?

now, it's time to say goodbye..memandangkan dia mau masuk kerja at 0800 pm sedangkan masa tu dah 0730+++, sory susahkan..this incident really *deep sigh*..smpai skrang even dia dah bagi penjelasan, i'm still scared to death..nangis masa solat maghrib up to dalam lrt up to dalam bas up to dalam bilik kawan..mmg takut sngat masa tu..

i really can't imagine something like that would ever happen to us..smpai saat ni, sy sngat berharap dan berdoa murka Allah tu tak kena dgan org lain atas perbuatan yg ktorg buat..even the act is simple but not for me..i really hope that it won't happen again sbb betul sy tak sedia lagi..lagi2 bila kena buat mcm tu, lagilah sy takut nak sediakan diri sy untuk dia sepenuhnya..

that's all for tonight..really trying my best not to timbulkan gara2 lagi..sbb ada satu doa yg ingin dimakbulkan hanya dengan kuasa Allah satu2-Nya dapat direalisasikan..amin..

written by D.U.A..

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